Raise a little hell - I'm back
July 26 - 68 days since my flight back to Germany. The flight was horrible, the first weeks in Germany too. From the big city with super chill people to the small town full of assholes. It sucks, it really really does. I still miss my friends a shit load and if I could I'd just give up so much just to be back in MTL. 9 months were enough to find the best friends I've ever had, to learn so much about myself and enough to fall in love with the city and island of Montréal. Some people might say these 9 months were a total crash, but I've never been happier. So what's left? I don't hate Germany as much as I used to, but I still just want to get the hell outta here.
So many German exchange students said their stay sucked and I can tell them why - they didn't have enough Canadian friends. Thing is once you've established a friendship with a single Canadian, you're going to meet so many more. I'm a shy person, I've always been. It was never easy for me to meet new people, but suddenly something changed. I met so many people, I'm much more open now and even in Germany, all by myself, I manage to meet lots of new people, I manage to do things I've never dreamed of ever actually doing. Nowadays when I find myself in a city where I don't know a single person, I look out for a group of chill looking people, I go up to them and just ask if I can sit with them. With the right people it works and it's a great conversation starter, the ones who'll make fun of me for asking them are just plain stupid, no one I'd like to hang out with.
I don't wanna tell anyone that an exchange year is just awesome all the time, it can be fucking horrible but it's just what you make out of it. You can work your way in and out of everything.
This is a weird ass post, I know, but I'm kind of just writing down what's bugging me lately. I miss talking English, I miss hearing French and most of all I miss the greatest friends I ever had :)
But I'm gonna be back. Another year in hell called Germany and I'm back in Canada - this time for fucking long.
What's left to say about exchange years? They're awesome, but can also be hell. One thing's for sure, it changes people in good or bad ways and it can also make you hell of a lot stronger depending on what you're experiences will be and how you deal with them.
I changed a lot, I'm just not the same person anymore.
This isn't Moth, this isn't Motte. This is Knives.